my conundrum…

So I’m sitting here contemplating writing with a tub of peanut butter in one hand and spoon in the other. Its been one of those weeks, or maybe one of those months, where you just feel completely and utterly lost.

My horoscope for 2019 said this would be “my year” but alas, its not really ‘my year’ just yet (word of wisdom: horoscopes aren’t always right folks). Four months in and I feel like I’ve just been waiting for time to pass until I go overseas!

This is most definitely not the way I want to live my life. Just ‘passing’ time is a horrible way to live life! But I’m in a bit of a sticky situation. 

Problem Number one: Firstly, I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I’m being pulled in about ten thousand different directions (I might add that this is not a bad problem to have) But… I want to devote most of my time to something that inspires me and excites me and pushes me to be better. Now, I’m realistic in the sense that even something which you adore can be hard work at times, but I’ve never really imagined myself at a desk job, slogging away 9-5 with a routine schedule. 

I’ve got a bachelors and masters degree in Media & Communications. Yet I’ve also been acting (and singing… oh and some dancing) throughout both degrees and through school. Now that my Masters degree is finished I need to pick something to focus on post-Europe trip. And this friends, is where the conundrum lies.

Do I give acting a go? Do I go into Media & Comms? *bites nails profusely* 

Now I’m thinking I can always start my media and comms career later. I mean I have been trained in it. But then I could have missed out on years of growth and learning. But then will I regret never giving acting a go? Do I want to go and study acting? But then thats another 3 years worth of study and no guarantee of a job. I mean, I could be super shit for all I know! Not to mention I would love some financial stability in any future career. And that there is problem number 2, oh and three, oh yup and there number 4.

God I just don’t know. I feel so utterly lost and useless right now! 

Any advice? Anyone? Could seriously use a bit a guidance!

Lots of Love,

T x

P.S. on the plus side I did find some new jeans from Neuw at TK Maxx, for only 50 bucks! Woo! Will try and take some pics in them soon! 

P.P.S. sorry for the lack of fashion content. Suppose this is adventure related though, yeah? I mean life is an adventure? Andddddd, inner ramblings are fashionable… am I right? (god I hope I’m right!) xx

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